Falling-Forward

I lay awake at night consumed by insomnia. In the dark, Just smiling at the nightmares. Something inside slowly begins to fade, Inside all seems lost. The isolation I force upon myself, kills what love I have left In nothing but the bareness of skin, the lack of light, and everything I pressure myself to ignore. So what is it that I do now? I'm only here to be free, but I'm covered in insecurities, Caked with the lack of trust I have for others. Alone is sit with all this doubt Thinking about how much better it would be If I wasn't without you. If only it wasn't real. All these things I try so hard not to experienc